It's the Great Pumpkin!!

My hubby and I just celebrated our fifth wedding anniversary. Per our usual we went to the coast for a night away from child and household chores. The weather this year, as is every year in Oregon, absolutely gorgeous. We love October, the leaves, the crispness to the air, everything about it. This year the anniversary fell on a Saturday. I normally have to work Saturdays, so I finangled my way into a day off.....So you can imagine how excited and happy I was to be truly free on a Saturday for the first time in almost 6 months. Lets just say I was being pretty silly.

So there we are driving to the coast and there is some traffic, as I pass a vehicle I notice a truck up ahead with something large and round strapped down in back...it is also orange. "Is that a pumpkin?" I say. My hubby agrees that it looks like. So I put on some acceleration and I caught up to that truck, and indeed, it was a pumpkin. Not just any pumpkin, but probably the largest pumpkin I have ever seen. I am fascinated.

Molly: "where do you think the pumpkin is going?"
Mitch: "to the coast apparently"
Molly: "What is it going to do there?"
Mitch: "I really wouldn't know."
Molly: "it's big enough to make into a playhouse for small children"
Mitch: "yes, I suppose it is"
Molly: "Imagine the pumpkin pie you could make out of that thing"
Mitch: (starting to wonder if I am high or something) "I doubt it would taste very good"
Molly: "why is it going to the coast?"
Mitch: "maybe its going to the casino"
Molly: "maybe they will split it in two and hollow out the seeds and make two little boats to sail on the ocean"
Mitch: "you are being very silly"

And the conversation continued. Occasionally we would change topic but it would always come back to the amazing pumpkin up ahead of us. We guessed that it ways upwards of 1000 lbs...who know show much actually. As we got close to Lincoln City I lost track of the truck....we guessed that it indeed turned off at the casino.....later in the day they dropped the pumpkin onto a jeep demolishing both. (we learned from the marquee at the casino)

That made me sad. I wish I had a picture of the pumpkin.

I know I just posted but.......

I love this picture, something about it just makes me happy.

too nice

I believe my boss has been told to be nice to me or else. The last few days have been almost eerie with his very sincere sounding offers to help and support what I am doing. I would love to know what was actually said to him. I mentioned to one of he other directors today that he has been very nice to me, and her response was, "well, he has to be" with a funny little smile on her face. I want to have faith that it will last and that things will be better, but I am not convinced just yet. Plus, I am not sure its good enough. I should be a good soul and give it a chance.

On a different note, I am trying to take more charge of me. I am taking a guitar class and loving it. I am sewing and writing and drawing more. I am dreaming more too...allowing myself to have fantasies of my perfect world....if I can figure out what that is, perhaps I can get myself there.

Stuck

I hate my job...well, not the job so much, as I hate my boss and many of the things that are part of the company. So, I need to get out of it and I don't know how. When I was laid off a year ago I had such a hard time finding work. It scares the breath out of me to think of looking for work and not finding it and being stuck where I am forever. I have had this terrible feeling in my stomach all morning and I just don't know how to deal with it. When the job I have now came along I thought it was meant to be and the solution. But I am miserable and I hate every minute I am there.