Yum

possibilities are delicious. I don't want to say much more than that...don't want to jinx anything. But Mitch applied for a job, and if he gets it, life could change in many ways....good ways I think. But we'll see.

Onward and Upward

Or at least that's the general idea. My husband and I both know what the final goal is. To move back to Portland. Getting there is the problem. We are not happy with our current home. Its a great little house but the simple fact is that we have a neighbor who likes to play his golden oldies really loudly on really bad speakers. We can hear it in the house over the noisy window air conditioner. I can sort of zen it out most of the time. Mitch however cannot stand it...it gets to him very badly. So in short we need to move because nothing we have done will change our neighbor. We have asked him to turn it down...met with belligerent "I can do what I want" response swearing included. We have called the police...when they finally got here he was gone. He is fairly nice when we see him in passing, waving or nodding hello....he is just completely unaware of the effect his music has on the people around him.

Neighbor issues set aside the goal is to move to Portland. We can't afford to rent or buy another place while we still own this one.....so we are hit with a dilemma. The housing market sucks right now...do we try to sell it now anyways and see what happens? Or, do we live here and look for jobs in Portland and commute if needed for a while so we at least are established up there (and neither of us love our current jobs as it is). But is commuting with the gas prices as they are too much of a hardship?

Stupid economy, stupid money. I suppose we should be happy that we have a house that we can afford and jobs that are somewhat secure (Mitch's anyway). But it is our nature to want what we don't have. So how do we get it?

I was wrong

He can't walk this morning....crap

being selfish

Mitch hurt himself today, he fell and twisted his ankle. Its not swelling and it does not appear to be broken but it hurts. We have spent the weekend til now at a friends house and he was supposed to head home today with Miles while I stay here and visit with some other friends in Portland tomorrow. The loving giving nurturing wifely thing to do would be to give up the night to myself minus the husband and child and enjoy sleeping in before a fun day with a friend I haven't seen in 13 years. But I didn't. Am I a terrible person? I don't think so. There is some guilt. But if I had gone home I would have been incredibly grouchy and resentful. What is the right thing to do in this situation? I have been so tired lately and having trouble putting up with my husband and his moods. I have been looking forward to this night and tomorrow for a couple of weeks and I very seriously did not want to give that up. I suppose that whether Mitch having to take care of Miles for the next 24 hours is harmful to the health of his ankle would be the real indicator of how horribly selfish I am really being. Honestly, I feel like he will be fine and that he needs to man up and deal...but then again...I am not wanting to sacrifice my own desires to be there tonight. There is no real answer.

at loose ends

Here I am with no husband at home tonight and the toddler is sound asleep (in my bed, but hey, little victories) and I have no clue what to do with myself. I feel like I should be taking full advantage of this time to not have anyone to answer too. But I have not a clue. There is nothing on TV so I can't even watch a stupid show that Mitch usually makes fun of me for. I have nothing from netflix that I can watch without him. I could read my book, but ehhhh....I dunno....I have been craving some time to be creative and start sewing again, or paint a picture or write...but I have no desire to do so. I will admit I am tired, and I had a tough day (sick toddler and asshole boss) so perhaps I deserve an evening of mindless internet surfing etc...but it feels like a waste.

If only I had more energy.

Yes, we have no bananas...

So, my friend Kelly suggested this quiz. I have a hard time judging myself for accuracy, but it seems pretty good....

You Are a Banana

You are mellow, easy going, and a total softie on the inside. People find it really easy to get along with you. You suit most tastes. And while you're very sweet, you're not boring or ordinary. You have an attraction to the exotic, and you could show up anywhere... doing almost anything! You are spirited, energetic, and a total kick to be around. You're also quite funny. Your sense of humor is on the goofy side, and it fits you well.

What Type of Fruit Are You?

Boys have a penis and girls have vaginas

My husband was giving Miles a bath the other night. I was reading on the couch enjoying some moments of quiet. All of a sudden Miles yells from the bathroom. "Mami!!!" "Yes Miles", I replied. "Do you have a big penis?" he hollers back. "What!!!???"

Apparently Mitch had asked Miles how his penis was, it was red or something...and Miles replied, "I have a small penis, you have a big penis" to which Mitch said (jokingly), "you will have to ask your Mom about that"....