wow, what a month

I know it has been forever since I posted. Its been quite a month. I will do my best to sum up over the next couple of days so that it is all down for posterity or whatever.

First thing: Mitch and I got IPhone's....part of the reason I have been a bad blogger. I have hardly touched my poor laptop since I got the phone. It has started wearing sexy lingerie to try and catch my eye, but unfortunately the petite little thing that fits in my pocket has been my technological mistress. I still love the laptop, but I also love my IPhone. Is it okay to be polyamourous when it comes to your computer devices? I have promised to pay more attention to the laptop, it is better for certain things over the IPhone. Such as writing long emails and updating my blogs.

Miles turned 3 on October 28th. He is so amazing. Everyday he comes up with new things to say that surprise, delight and shock me. The least favorite is his imitation of Mitch's "god dammit" he will say it over and over usually at very appropriate times. This morning he mad eme laugh with his response to my question, "would you like to say good morning to your Aunt Mel?" (we were talking on the phone) He answered, "no, I want to TALK to her" Children are so literal. Its fun and a challenge to find the right way to ask a question or explain something to him so that we actually understand each other.

His allergy to the cat seems to be getting worse. It forces me to think about giving her to a good home where she would be loved and not causing suffering in the allergic. We have been able to keep Miles' room mostly cat free. She is not allowed to get on the bed in there. But she sleeps on the couch and on our bed and he really enjoys pettign her occasionally. Other occasions he wants to be a three year old boy and throw things at her.

He loves to read books and sing songs. He likes to paint, color and do crafts. He also wants to be a ninja turtle. He declared the other day that Santa Claus was brining him a ninja turtle for christmas. Guess I have to find one now.

On a closing note for today. I was at Target today, a store which I find great joy in just wandering. I was exploring the toy section to see what Miles might like and I saw something there that made me realize that I am officially old. There was a 25th anniversary special edition of a cabbage patch doll. 25 years! I remember the christmas that all I wanted was a cabbage patch doll. I remember it so well. Can it really be 25 years ago? How can that be? I am old, old old.....

It's the Great Pumpkin!!

My hubby and I just celebrated our fifth wedding anniversary. Per our usual we went to the coast for a night away from child and household chores. The weather this year, as is every year in Oregon, absolutely gorgeous. We love October, the leaves, the crispness to the air, everything about it. This year the anniversary fell on a Saturday. I normally have to work Saturdays, so I finangled my way into a day off.....So you can imagine how excited and happy I was to be truly free on a Saturday for the first time in almost 6 months. Lets just say I was being pretty silly.

So there we are driving to the coast and there is some traffic, as I pass a vehicle I notice a truck up ahead with something large and round strapped down in back...it is also orange. "Is that a pumpkin?" I say. My hubby agrees that it looks like. So I put on some acceleration and I caught up to that truck, and indeed, it was a pumpkin. Not just any pumpkin, but probably the largest pumpkin I have ever seen. I am fascinated.

Molly: "where do you think the pumpkin is going?"
Mitch: "to the coast apparently"
Molly: "What is it going to do there?"
Mitch: "I really wouldn't know."
Molly: "it's big enough to make into a playhouse for small children"
Mitch: "yes, I suppose it is"
Molly: "Imagine the pumpkin pie you could make out of that thing"
Mitch: (starting to wonder if I am high or something) "I doubt it would taste very good"
Molly: "why is it going to the coast?"
Mitch: "maybe its going to the casino"
Molly: "maybe they will split it in two and hollow out the seeds and make two little boats to sail on the ocean"
Mitch: "you are being very silly"

And the conversation continued. Occasionally we would change topic but it would always come back to the amazing pumpkin up ahead of us. We guessed that it ways upwards of 1000 lbs...who know show much actually. As we got close to Lincoln City I lost track of the truck....we guessed that it indeed turned off at the casino.....later in the day they dropped the pumpkin onto a jeep demolishing both. (we learned from the marquee at the casino)

That made me sad. I wish I had a picture of the pumpkin.

I know I just posted but.......

I love this picture, something about it just makes me happy.

too nice

I believe my boss has been told to be nice to me or else. The last few days have been almost eerie with his very sincere sounding offers to help and support what I am doing. I would love to know what was actually said to him. I mentioned to one of he other directors today that he has been very nice to me, and her response was, "well, he has to be" with a funny little smile on her face. I want to have faith that it will last and that things will be better, but I am not convinced just yet. Plus, I am not sure its good enough. I should be a good soul and give it a chance.

On a different note, I am trying to take more charge of me. I am taking a guitar class and loving it. I am sewing and writing and drawing more. I am dreaming more too...allowing myself to have fantasies of my perfect world....if I can figure out what that is, perhaps I can get myself there.

Stuck

I hate my job...well, not the job so much, as I hate my boss and many of the things that are part of the company. So, I need to get out of it and I don't know how. When I was laid off a year ago I had such a hard time finding work. It scares the breath out of me to think of looking for work and not finding it and being stuck where I am forever. I have had this terrible feeling in my stomach all morning and I just don't know how to deal with it. When the job I have now came along I thought it was meant to be and the solution. But I am miserable and I hate every minute I am there.

Yum

possibilities are delicious. I don't want to say much more than that...don't want to jinx anything. But Mitch applied for a job, and if he gets it, life could change in many ways....good ways I think. But we'll see.

Onward and Upward

Or at least that's the general idea. My husband and I both know what the final goal is. To move back to Portland. Getting there is the problem. We are not happy with our current home. Its a great little house but the simple fact is that we have a neighbor who likes to play his golden oldies really loudly on really bad speakers. We can hear it in the house over the noisy window air conditioner. I can sort of zen it out most of the time. Mitch however cannot stand it...it gets to him very badly. So in short we need to move because nothing we have done will change our neighbor. We have asked him to turn it down...met with belligerent "I can do what I want" response swearing included. We have called the police...when they finally got here he was gone. He is fairly nice when we see him in passing, waving or nodding hello....he is just completely unaware of the effect his music has on the people around him.

Neighbor issues set aside the goal is to move to Portland. We can't afford to rent or buy another place while we still own this one.....so we are hit with a dilemma. The housing market sucks right now...do we try to sell it now anyways and see what happens? Or, do we live here and look for jobs in Portland and commute if needed for a while so we at least are established up there (and neither of us love our current jobs as it is). But is commuting with the gas prices as they are too much of a hardship?

Stupid economy, stupid money. I suppose we should be happy that we have a house that we can afford and jobs that are somewhat secure (Mitch's anyway). But it is our nature to want what we don't have. So how do we get it?